I consider what I am going through to be a difficult time in my life and where a few months ago I got an immense amount of comfort from Tertris Porn, I am now in need of more help. A giggle won’t cut it today, the easy laugh is too quickly forgotten and the sadness creeps back in wanting to hijack my nicer thoughts.

This funk I’m feeling now is a little more serious; my good friends art and music have me all feely and thinky and though my musical tastes are so dreary they can’t be posted here for fear of Kids Help Line contacting me I can post some beautiful art.

It’s strange how things find you when you need them most and while checking my Tweets this morning I came across a work in progress from Bolton Art inspired by “sex, faith, fear, peace..all that dreams are…”. Having featured Anthony Bolton’s work on ChalkBored in the past, I was intrigued as to what new work had appeared on his site in the last five months.

Visiting the gallery and enjoying what was new and quirky in Bolton’s world was fantastic. The Anxietes of Modern Middle Aged Man’s “The Venus Patella” piece was stared at for an age with new depth being seen the more I looked and I was teased by wanting to touch it (a big no-no I’m aware but still..there is one glossy bump on black leaf that is calling for me to run my finger over it and feel the brush-stroke).

I browse through the list of paintings but it was when I clicked on his collection of Small Paintings that I was truly blown away.

I want all of them. I LOVE “She Still Hears Him. She’s Just Not There Anymore”, I got a lump in my throat looking at it and a tears pricked my eyes. I want to look at this everyday. I want to own it. I want to feel it’s presence. Can I have it Anthony or will I have to settle for a print? I’m looking into it now.

The next is “Shut the Fuck Up” and I love that too, can identify with it and want to look at it and feel angry. I might not hang it a common area. Would make me mad but I would definitely love to just vent with it, just it and I.

“Pearl” confuses me a little, I like her but not sure what she represents. The hand reaching into her head is what resonates most with me right now.

Finally “Brainstormer”. I really like monochromatic art and this is so strong.

If I was to buy 2 pieces today they would be this and “She Still Hears Him…” I have never wanted to be in the company of two paintings so much. Wish you were in Australia Bolton, I would come visit today.